The kids just left for school, the house is quiet. Coffee is in hand and I've given myself a few moments to write before I get on with the day. I just don't know what I should tell. My mind has been in a thousands places over the past 24 hrs.
First off, thanks for your comments on my last post. It seems we are all in agreement that love doesn't happen at first sight. Trinity mentioned the Shrek movies, and yes, I have seen them and love them for several reasons. One being the fact that even ogres can experience it. In Shrek 2 they had the opportunity at the end to remain beautiful humans and chose not to (how many of us secretly wanted them to stay in the more attractive state though?)
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We found a home for our cat, he is getting on the plane and heading back to Ontario. Our dog, Rocky had his 'manhood' removed from him this week. He is going around the house with one of those big plastic cones on his head. It is quite hilarious because he is bumping into everything. On the first day when he was moping around I thought I heard Ginger laughing, 'sucker' as he ran past Rockey without being jumped on.
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I've been wondering these days when I'm going to feel 'at home' again. Yes I am settled and content in my new city, home and neighbourhood. I love the church and people we are pastoring, but I still don't feel at home. Most days I ignore the feelings and pretend they are not there, but some days...some days I just can't. The trouble is, I get homesicky type feelings but have no home to feel that way about now. When I go back to where I grew up it no longer feels like home, probably because it has been so long and the visits infrequent. If and when I go back to where I've just been I would quickly recognize that that too is a chapter closed and no longer home. So, for now I'm stuck in limbo. Hoping that soon, very soon I will feel at home here. It hasn't been a year yet but shouldn't it have happened by now?
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I have been gathering thoughts and pictures for my next highlight to share (I know you all are on the edge of your seat in anticipation!). I am hoping to post it a little later. For now, I have some importo work that needs to be done. "Shelby....I'm coming..."
Thursday, October 20, 2005
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2 comments:
In Shrek I wanted them to stay human, but I'm glad they changed back in the end. It's a great movie!
And just give it a little more time...you will soon feel at home.
I think the "homesicky" feelings you are having are for the people you're missing, not a place. You are very people-oriented and I know that your friendships and your family connections go very deep. The more your friendships in Calgary deepen, the more at home you'll feel.
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