Walking on Sunshine

When it comes to exercise, I've experienced a varied degree of committment to it over certain periods in life.

While I've never considered myself an athlete (that is actually a joke) I have been physically fit and active. I exercised daily, chose to walk instead of drive or use transit, chose stairs over elevators and aerobics classes were a favorite of mine.

Sadly, I have to use past tense when referring to being fit. It is amazing to me how quickly you become sluggish and turn to mush. The months and even years go by so fast that when I look back on my life, it seems as though one day I was physically active and the next I was not, when in reality, the gap between the two is quite long.

This has been bugging me for a while now. I am not the way I used to be or the way I should be. While I loved going to the gym last year, it is just not in the budget for us any longer. I decided in my mind that exercise should not have to cost money and if I really wanted to take another stab at it, I would be outside pounding the pavement for free. While I knew that, actually doing it was a whole other story. I lacked exercise for so long that I developed an aversion to it. Bleh.

I've had it with myself and am tired of being disappointed with a lack of follow through. So now I am buckling down. I have set personal goals and amazingly to me I have kept them. I have set goals before to no avail. While I'm never excited to get out of bed in the morning, I am excited that every day since the kids have been back in school, my neighbour and I have been going out for 30-45 mins of exercise. Yay! This is huge for me.

I just want to be healthy again. sigh.